City Rain

City Rain

Monday, April 25, 2011

"You should always write the name of the person you love in a circle, not a heart, because hearts break and circles last forever." - Unknown.

I guess you can kind of figure what this is about.  I know this one girl.  She is beautiful beyond description and she's like an angel upon the earth.  She's a very happy person, she's a music lover, and she's in constant fascination with the rain and snow.  Her personality is just amazing.  She's just amazing in general.  What she doesn't realize, however, is what she really means to me.  Whenever I'm around her, I always feel happy, uplifted, and makes me want to be a much better person.  Rarely do people do that for me.  Another thing she does, which she'll never know, is that she protects me.  The devil recently came to tempt me with an old sin that often got me in the past.  This time, he didn't win.  What drove him away this time was the thought of her.  She somehow was like a defense or a shield that protected me.  There's only one other person who did that for me.  His name is Jesus Christ.  Another thing she unknowingly did was this: I recently got into a kind of a fight with my sister and we didn't speak to each other for about 5 minutes.  Why 5 minutes?  I somehow imagined the girl gently scolding me and told me to forgive my sister.  Which I did. 

I don't know if I'll ever be able to show my gratitude to her for what she unknowingly did.  One, it'd be creepy if I told her.  Two, sometimes, it's better if these things stay quiet and within my own mind.  Regardless, thank you beautiful angel.  You're one of the angels I was asking for in prayer.  If I'm not the one that wins your heart, then I wish the man who does with the best of luck and blessings of a long and happy life with you.


Sunday, April 24, 2011

There is a place,
Where we turn to for comfort
To seek sanctuary from the world
A place we've known all our lives.

There is a place,
Where we know happiness exists
Where there is no pain or sadness
Where we can be loved as us.

Where is this place?

There is a place,
That we can't even dream of
A place where all sorrows end
A place where despair can not dwell.

There is a place,
That has the greenest hills and trees
That has the bluest sky
That has the brightest sunny day.

Is there such a place?

There is a place,
Where love envelopes us
And holds us close in her arms
And chases all our nightmares away.

Est locus,
Est gaudio
Ubi dicimus in Music
Ubi summa regnat Christus

Existit locus iste

Reperiemus id
(The House at Swamp Bottom)
Note: Listen and reread while listening.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Why remember the past? Cause there's good memories too.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Turn on the music, crank up the volume, bring up the bass, get in a rocketship and explore all the Galaxies.  The Owls in the City are already gone, don't fall behind.


Sunday, April 17, 2011

So ends Spring Break.  Tomorrow, school returns.  Yay.  Don't get me wrong, it's nice to revisit friends and whatnot, but I'm just not looking forward to going back to school work in particular.  Plus, it won't help that I have a girl that will be constantly on my mind all the time at school.  It's a shame she goes to a different school than I do but what can you do?  I could visit her and call her up anytime I want.  Eventually, I need to go talk to her.  I'm going to college in August, and a year after, my mission.  I don't want to hold her down, especially in her senior year.  It's going to be interesting, but I'll wait for the right moment, like I always have.  Well, mostly always have but you get the point.

My parents are expecting me to get a job close to home just so I can prolong my stay at home instead of going to work at the Scout camp.  One benefit from this idea would be that I'll earn more money for myself.  The downside, I won't be able to leave the house that often.  I need to be free.  Oh well, my time will come.  No matter how many times my parents try to postpone it, I will leave this house to be out on my own.  They must prepare themselves for when that happens.

What I will miss the most, besides my family, are my friends.  Especially those who are dearest to me.  What am I going to do without them?  I don't want the same thing to happen like it did with my old Smithfield friends.  My purpose in their lives was fulfilled and I was no longer needed.  However, it needed to happen so I could meet these friends here.  Perhaps they'll stay.  I hope that they'll stay...


Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

So it's raining again today.  It's always special when it rains.  Whenever it does rain, I like to imagine that God made it especially for me.  Like everytime I step outside, it's like the rain knows I'm outside, so it begins to rain harder, just for me.  The rain is a friend that is seldom seen, but always reliable whenever it shows its face.  It listens, it sympathizes, and it brings comfort.  To those who pay attention, there's a sort of magic quality to it.  Even though a person's heart has been shattered, it is cleansed and healed by the qualites of rain.  For those who have anger and hatred against someone and the world, their hearts are cooled and their roars of fury and anguish evaporates by the soothing droplets of rain.  It's even better when lightning is seen and thunder is heard.  For those who seek sanctuary in the rain, it brings them hope, it uplifts them.  Why? Because it gives them proof that God is there.  That God exists.  That God is listening.  To them, it doesn't matter what will come, so long as the lightning flashes and the thunder booms, nothing will bring them down.


Saturday, April 9, 2011

Thoughts on Band/Orchestra Tour 2011

On this trip, I had the opportunity to visit two temples: the Idaho Falls temple and the Rexberg Idaho temple.  Each time I saw those temples, a curious feeling always came to me.  I felt such peace and such a calm that came over me everytime I looked at it.  I always felt at home, thought I was far from home.  Not only did I feel at home, I also had another thought.  I am going to take my future wife to the temple.  I don't know what one, but I know that I will take her to a temple.  It will happen.


Sunday, April 3, 2011

As I was sitting at home, just checking my Facebook page, I came to a sudden realization. My Life Starts in about two months.  It's scaring me half to death.  I'm graduating in June!  After graduation, it's scout camp counselor until August, then Snow College Fall Semester, then after that, I'll be going on my mission once I turn 19.  It's coming too fast for me.  Granted, I really wanted to be out of high school but now that it's becoming reality, it's scaring me.  It's really scaring me.  It's like the deep breathe before the plunge off the cliff.  I really don't know what to expect in the upcoming years.  What trials await me.  Not a clue.  I've had ideas before but that was because I knew what to expect for the next year.  Not this time.  This time, I'll be on my own, away from my parents, for the first time, I'm on my own.  I'll have to provide for myself.  How the heck am I gonna do that?! 
Then there's the heart matter.  To be honest, that frightens me more than anything.  As each day passes, I get the strangest feeling.  She's getting closer.  It's exciting but also really scary.  However, I learned something recently from the 181st General Conference, from President Monson.  I have to be the one, not look for the one.  I just need to be the best I can be, and she'll find me that way.  I always have wondered who she will be.  What she is like.  All I can say is, I hope she's like me, a kindred spirit if you will.  I don't know, I'm scared out of my mind.  All I know is that I'm supposed to trust and rely upon the Lord and He'll take care of the rest.  Gotta get into that mind set in the upcoming months.  I know He'll be listening, He just needs to make sure I don't get lost as I go out into the world.  Here goes nothing, wish me luck, and see you whenever it rains.


Friday, April 1, 2011